For homework last week I was asked to list five pros and five cons about myself. This may not sound to hard, but it was incredibly difficult! I struggled all week and found myself still working on it yesterday, all day, before my session. I felt like writing a con about myself on paper only solidified and enhanced the negative quality. The last think I wanted to do!
The pros were a little easy until I wrote three down. I could not think of more, and honestly, I felt like I was being prideful when I wrote those three.
How could I come up with more when we are encouraged not to be prideful?
Lets first look at the definition of prideful:
a. disdainful, haughty; b. exultant, elated
In aknowledging possitive qualities in yourself, you are not raising yourself above others or judging them. You are simply noticing some of the gifts Heavenly Father gave you.
My pros and cons:
- I am easily agitated
- I’m shy
- I don’t feel pretty
- I’m overweight
- I cannot run
- I like to make people happy
- I can cook, and am pretty good
- I have pretty eyes
- I have empathy for others
Have you ever made a list? Was it hard for you?
I have struggled with self-esteem and a quick temper for as long as I can remember.
Having three little ones four and under have only increased my awareness of these problems. It has also increased my desire to resolve them. I do not want my girls growing up thinking they aren’t beautiful, smart, funny, and talented in the one-million ways I see them now. I want my son to understand how to love and respect women because I love and respect myself.
After B was born in June 2013, I had an incredibly hard time controlling my temper, getting sleep, eating right and well, pretty mud everything. I constantly felt overwhelmed. In November 2013, I started seeing a councilor again. Yes, again. It had approximately five years since I had seen one. I never really resolved anything with those sessions, I just ended up too overwhelmed with getting married and school. I was newly married, in school, and then pregnant, so I stopped. A few weeks ago I found out I struggle with postpartum depression.
I love my councilor! She has been wonderful, hard, honest, loving, and most important-loving. I have decided to put some of my homework on the blog. This is to both help it sink-in and get me back into blogging. I have not picked back up after I loosing everything.
Feel free to ask questions, make comments here, or completely ignore me.
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