I’ve really struggled with what to say today. Hence why it is really Thursday and I’m writing my Wednesday post.
Today has been a hard. One where I wanted to shut everyone and everything out, right from the start. With teaching, we are all still trying to adjust to the new schedule. My three little ones get woken up around six o’clock in the morning, needless to say we are all overtired.
I have this little part of my brain (okay, big part) that wants everything to be perfect. Yes, I know it’s not happening soon. I want the house to be clean, no clutter, happy kids who never fight and take naps… I want to be a good wife, good mom, good daughter, food granddaughter, Continue reading
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I have struggled with self-esteem and a quick temper for as long as I can remember.
Having three little ones four and under have only increased my awareness of these problems. It has also increased my desire to resolve them. I do not want my girls growing up thinking they aren’t beautiful, smart, funny, and talented in the one-million ways I see them now. I want my son to understand how to love and respect women because I love and respect myself.
After B was born in June 2013, I had an incredibly hard time controlling my temper, getting sleep, eating right and well, pretty mud everything. I constantly felt overwhelmed. In November 2013, I started seeing a councilor again. Yes, again. It had approximately five years since I had seen one. I never really resolved anything with those sessions, I just ended up too overwhelmed with getting married and school. I was newly married, in school, and then pregnant, so I stopped. A few weeks ago I found out I struggle with postpartum depression.
I love my councilor! She has been wonderful, hard, honest, loving, and most important-loving. I have decided to put some of my homework on the blog. This is to both help it sink-in and get me back into blogging. I have not picked back up after I loosing everything.
Feel free to ask questions, make comments here, or completely ignore me.
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