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We Believe Wednesday-I’m a Mormon

I’m starting a weekly post called “We Believe Wednesday.”  Feel free to link up with our weekly posts.  Each week I will post information on what I believe or stories that are relevant to my life as a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints.

So, I’m a Mormon.

What is a Mormon?

A Mormon is a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints. Often times people refer to us as the Mormon Church or Mormons.

Why are you called Mormons?

We believe in the Book or Mormon.  This book is scripture, like the Bible.  We believe the Book of Mormon aids in testifying of the life of Jesus Christ.  The Book of Mormon is given out freely, all over the world by members of our church, as well as by missionaries.  If you would like one, feel free to ask me, a member, or click here.

What is the Book of Mormon?

The Book of Mormon is a compilation of writings from ancient prophets starting in Jerusalem with Lehi. Around 600 B.C., Lehi, his family and a few others traveled from Jerusalem to America.  The Book of Mormon follows their journey and and continues to follow the people as they become a large civilization.  Heavenly Father, God, continued to call prophets to help teach and guide the people. In the end of the Book of Mormon, the prophet Moroni, promises that if you sincerely read and pray with an open heart, you will know of its truth through the Holy Ghost (Moroni 10:4).

I’m lost

Somewhere, somehow, I lost myself. Between school, work, being a mom, a wife, graduating, all the moves and trying to “fit in,” I’ve lost who I am and who I want to be.

I went into a type of autopilot.  I stopped thinking and caring so much about things which were once important to me.  Stopped trying so hard.

When Gordon an I first were married, I was still in school. We became pregnant fairly quick. I made bread every few weeks, granola bars and fruit leathers were always being rotated through my homemade projects.  I staved to find ways to eat healthily and on a very tight budget.  We had more variety to our meals and we even planned them out.

Family Picture-10/21/09

Family Picture-10/21/09

I graduated eight months pregnant with our second, Tiny.  After Tiny was born, I was doing some at home preschool with Princess. Fruit leathers, granola bars, and bread became occasional projects.  I joined a preschool co-op with two other mothers and we loved it!  We want for walks, play groups, planted gardens, played outside and ran through sprinklers.

Princess' first day of Preschool Co-op

Princess’ first day of Preschool Co-op

Before I gave birth to B, out third child, we had so much happen, everything stopped.  Gordon’s job was in jeopardy when the company he was working for was purchased.  People were being laid off and jobs were being outsourced to India.  There were a few times, by the grace of Heavenly Father, he was put on a list to be let go and he kept his job.

Our lease was ending, we were uncertain how long his job would last, so we moved in with family.  Two little girls, Gordon and I (pregnant), all lived in a little room for a few months.  I was done.  Other than making diner (and the very occasional treat) I wasn’t doing much.  Walks stopped, play groups seemed hard to attend, preschool co-op stopped.

Gordon stated with a new company and within the first month, we found a new place to live.  We moved closer to his work to avoid the hour plus commute.  B was born and it seemed like I failed at everything I tried.  I could barely make it through the day without loosing it.  Struggling with postpartum depression and being a mom of three seemed much harder than I felt it should be.

My cute three kids-6/21/13

My cute three kids-6/21/13

I posted pictures like this (see below) so I would be able to look back one day and laugh.

Tiny stuck in the toy bins.

Tiny stuck in the toy bins.

Now we still have days I loose it, days which end in tears foe everyone, but we also have great days, days we play at the park, days we play with bubbles, days we make sunflower seed butter, days we visit grandparents and days we just spend at home playing.

There are changes ahead I am excited to share, when the time is right.  For now, we have decided to find ourselves again.  Homemade bread, granola bars and fruit leathers will be homemade and fresh instead of store bought.  We will be starting homeschooling and playing more.  We will be reading, coloring, exploring and splashing in puddles.

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Princess’s first real jump!

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Sibling puddle time

Stay tuned as I try to share our journey a little more often. 

Boundaries and Borders

I have always had a hard time with saying “no.” Several times as a young single adult, I would drive to Oklahoma just to return phone calls and say:

I’m sorry, but I’m out of state right now and unable to help.

I would drive about an hour north on I35 to Thackerville, Oklahoma. It is just over the boarder. There is a little playground there, I would play and return my hard phone calls.

Last night in counseling we discussed boundaries. We all need to have them set. We shouldn’t feel guilty about setting them and keeping them firm. We are taking care if ourselves with them.

Karen showed me one of the following videos and asked me to look up the second one. I wanted to share them in the hope it would help you as well.

A little Background

I have struggled with self-esteem and a quick temper for as long as I can remember.

Having three little ones four and under have only increased my awareness of these problems.  It has also increased my desire to resolve them.  I do not want my girls growing up thinking they aren’t beautiful, smart, funny, and talented in the one-million ways I see them now.  I want my son to understand how to love and respect women because I love and respect myself.

After B was born in June 2013, I had an incredibly hard time controlling my temper, getting sleep, eating right and well, pretty mud everything. I constantly felt overwhelmed.  In November 2013, I started seeing a councilor again.  Yes, again. It had approximately five years since I had seen one.  I never really resolved anything with those sessions, I just ended up too overwhelmed with getting married and school.  I was newly married, in school, and then pregnant, so I stopped.  A few weeks ago I found out I struggle with postpartum depression.

I love my councilor!  She has been wonderful, hard, honest, loving, and most important-loving.  I have decided to put some of my homework on the blog.  This is to both help it sink-in and get me back into blogging.  I have not picked back up after I loosing everything.

Feel free to ask questions, make comments here, or completely ignore me.