This last weekend I attended Time Out For Women.
Among the many speakers, S. Michael Wilcox spoke. He said “find yourself in the scriptures.” This brought back a memory I thought I would share.
Six years and seven months ago I was dating a young man (Gordon) whom pursued me heavily. I was dating him because I strongly felt I should, but in reality I wanted nothing to do with boys. (Having just gotten out of a complicated relationship, I just wanted “me” time.)
After dating a while, we kept feeling like we were supposed to be together, the next step would be marriage. Honestly, I was rarified and excited at the same time.
I prayed to Heavenly Father for guidance on wither I should marry Gordon. I immediately feel the Holy Ghost telling me YES. I was uneasy. Although the prompting was so strong and overwhelming, it felt too easy and fast. I quickly told Heavenly Father I would pray about in the temple and then accept any answer He gives me then.
I know this may be a little shocking for some, that I would not accept the first answer. It was partially stubbornness and partially that I needed to be reassured when my answer cam so fast.
The same week as the first prayer, I went to the temple with a group of young single adults from church. A member of the Temple Presidency came to speak to us. He talked about utilizing the scriptures to help us receive answers to our prayers. He said, sometimes we need to just be willing to let the Lord guide us and the pages fall open to where He wants us to read. I decided, since I never do this, I would give it a try.
I sat quietly with my scriptures in hand. I looked up, opened my scriptures, looked down and read:
Behold, thou knowest that thou hast inquired of me and I did enlighten thy mind; and now I tell thee these things that thou mayest know that thou hast been enlightened by the Spirit of truth;
Yea, I tell thee, that thou mayest know that there is none else save God that knowest thy thoughts and the intents of thy heart.
Verily, verily, I say unto you, if you desire a further witness, cast your mind upon the night that you cried unto me in your heart, that you might know concerning the truth of these things.
Did I not speak peace to your mind concerning the matter? What greater witness can you have than from God?
And now, behold, you have received a witness; for if I havetold you things which no man knoweth have you not received a witness?
Doctrine and Covenants 6: 15-16, 22-24
I knew then, Heavenly Father answered me before. I knew the words written for Oliver Cowdery years ago, were for me at that moment. I knew our Lord understood me, better than I could imagine.
I am still ever so thankful Heavenly Father knew what I needed to understand and feel. I found myself in the scripture. I married Gordon after he was a member for a year.